Support !

Merry Christmas Everybody :) So Xmas Eve I actually went out to my neighbors house lol Then I went to watch the hunger games in the movie theater. When I am distracted I scratch less ! But I feel like I am still missing support :( When I woke up the next day after my breakdown my brother tells me "I was gunna hit you last night" I said why and he said "because your crying is annoying". That hurts. He has no idea what im going through. Anyways I am trying to be more positive now because faith will get you a long way. You cant be negative and I will admit I was saying all kinds of negative things that night including "I wanna die" :( This is just so hard but I know I will be sooo happy when I have my life back ! Sleep is still non existent but I am eating a bit more. I also quit soda and juice due to its high sugar content. I cheated today for the holidays and drank soda hehe but other than that just WATER and my tea.